So, who is this girl? (Part 2)

We have all established that it's a new year. And we want new, exciting things to happen in our lives in 2010. After 2009, I can't imagine that much more excitement could come along for me, good and bad. I have thought a lot about this year and how it could be different from last.

Remember this post that I wrote? (If you're a new follower go there first) I've been thinking about that since ringing in this new year. As I mentioned in that post, I want to be honest and real with you all. But not just for you, for me too. This blog has become a place for me to be myself and journal my life. Remember I said it may take a few posts to get everything out? Well, this is numero dos.

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It feels good to get things out in the open and just let it go. This year is a year of letting go for me. Letting go of a lot of things. Letting go of the past, obviously. Letting go of worrying about tomorrow so much. Attempting to not be such a control freak (this won't happen overnight). And overall, just living in the moment, living for right now. Because right now is all that we're promised.

As I mentioned in my last heart-felt post, I dealt with some serious heartache last year. To make a long story short, my boyfriend of three and a half years broke up with me a month before my college graduation. Yea, that was a bummer. At first. But it didn't take me too long to realize what a blessing in disguise that it had been.

Have you ever been in a situation that seemed so great, so perfect and then it turned out to be a complete disaster? That was me. Living in a complete disaster. There has never been an experience in my life that opened my eyes and gave me a breath of fresh air quite like this one.

 

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Heartache is something that we have all experienced at one point or another, in some way or another. This heartache helped me grow and become a better person. I realized the importance of my family and friends. I became aware of the loyalty that I had neglected because my head was in a cloud. I was able to mend relationships that were long overdo for a repair.

What I'm trying to say is this: Not every bad experience is the end of the world. Or a bad experience at all. This proved to me that there is a silver lining around every cloud (even the cloud my head was stuck in).

 

 

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In just a few weeks I'm going to be celebrating my birthday. This will be the first birthday that I've celebrated as a 'big girl.' Out on my own, working a job, making my own money... It feels a little different this year.

The experiences of 2009 had to happen for me to be the person that I am now, the person that I'm going to be when I turn twenty-three. I'm proud of myself for staying strong and persevering. There really was no other choice. I'm obviously not someone who waves a white flag.

That being said....

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Yea, that about covers it.